sands

tear escaped my eyes.
knowing i cnt do sumthg to sumone i loved.
i may nt noe dat sumone well. but she's sumone.
my heart dropped wen mum wun allow.

insya'allah.. i'll be allowd to do it to sumone i loved.

frm the sand we r created, to the sands we will return.


p/s. don. i'm glad n proud u moved on.
if u're happi w her, den continue.
wad i told ya dahulu, i juz wanna protect ya. dont wanna get hurt.
i'm glad a personal dream was fulfilled today.

p/s. dz. congrats on passin ur fyp.
tell me if u passed ur modules k. we can enjoysing..

craziness.
biolness.

e days i wud spend hours n days w the circle of friends.
ppl come n go.
but the main peeps stay.

i'm afraid tings wudnt be dat close.
like my friendships w others.
we maintained our ties for at least 3yrs nw.

sentosa was our recent outing.
cud we spend another one, before aidilfitri.
ouh pls.

eyn was right abt sumthg.
it does come w age i suppose.
maybe bcuz we hardly meet. hmms.
schedules always clashing.

just worried abt march 9.
wad wud b my outcome there.
most of the pessimist ones, was like sayin its difficult.
usually, dey arent the semangat ones.
the other optimist ones.
was like saying it is a phase every guy will pass by.
its up to the individual to assess the situation.
there r sum warnings by peeps, wich kinda doesnt agree w wad i observe.
1)2 peeps was a undergrad while in ns.
2)peeps goin thru ptp, does become sergeant.
3)a jc guy, passed napha, became a corporal.
4)2 spectacled guys became firefighters. sumone say firefigters r the "abg2 ones"

i once asked a army interviewer.
i once wnted to sign on. family reasons, i dont.
quote "wad u r selected to be in, are determined by ur qualifications, IQ, physical"
azril once mentioned too
"before u go ns, the peeps inside already recognize hu wud be the sergeants."

those hu says its tough, r the ones hu tk smngt.
those hu says its managable, r the ones hu smngt.
lucky, most of my peeps r the smngt ones. MOST.

of course, its better if i go in myself n experience.

i'm just disappointed in some ppl hu lied to me, just to make themselves feel superior. esp wen dey noe i wont find out. n wen dey r close to me.

me bored.
me sians.
me tired.
me kpala-da-stone.
i'm at temasek poly nw. for wad? hmms. dont know.
woke up, n saw the word temasek poly above the notice board.
maybe its e drug the gf tried ytdae. lol.

haha. i lied.
obviously. like urm.. Du'uH!
teman eyn help her w sum stuff wich i once did 4years ago!!
2005 is waaaay... ancient.
anyway, it jz make me feel bad.
shud i quit electronics n it.. for sumthing wich i'm studyin nw.
god, can i study all.
lucky got hasif.
damn smart brilliant high-iq... n other smart phrasing quotes...
malas nk include.
the bottomline is dat he is smart.
he noe alot of boolean equation shit.
how come he isnt in my fyp grp???
damn, he deserve high scores sei.

anyways, eyn is nuts.
sentiasa.
lols.
well gerl, yeab.. i guess i have laid back.
its jz comes w the age n commitments.

wait wait.

i wanna pause abt eyn..
i'm listening to "EVERYBODY" by backstreet boys.!!!!
omg!!!! yeah!!!!

k.. finish commercial.
back to eyn.
thousands of thumbs up to eyn hu nk blaja.
i mean, during my time, i jz do a suicide stunt.
g exam hall, tulis nama, terus ciow.
hey, respect ya gal.!!! woohooo...
mestila.. memba pe.

nw.. my gf..
hu tk habis2 nk ikot prangai perfectionist die.
da ckp blog lawa..
nk buat fabulous la. great la.
seen the stuff she is doin to her blog.
n i gotta admit.. i hav a "one dae, u do my blog for me cn" thinking..
last nite.. fuyoo.... i wait n wait n wait.
for 4-5hrs s8.. she kip on repeating "sejap k... lagik sikit"
smpai la tidur kul 4am..
i woke up at 7-8am anyways.haha.

hmms. love her.

i gotta comment sumthing.
n i hav to raise my hat to dz.
hey cuz, i respect, n applaud ur natural way of nt flirting.
a natural committed hunk.
honestly...u deserve the "wash eye2". after wad happen uh.
i understand she's a part of ya. i mean, we r rapat during u're attached.
so yeah, i seen the house-ladder being built.
how bout u try to jz put ur feelings aside..
n do ur projects.
afta dat, we enjoyssssing..
the dz-n-iz way. if there is a dz-n-iz way. lol.
get it done dude.
jz hope we wun hilang ctct after march 9.

hmms. oya, i gonna masuk-in camp march 9.
scdf here i come.

sentosa

yey!! me n yana succesfully done two wishes..
swimming n sentosa(beach).
in our list of wants..
hmms.. its kinda last-minute planned.
n i met a new fren. muz.
kinda a kwel person. i hav to comment.
i'll jz let our pics in facebk to continue on the story.

readin sum stuff associated w ubuntu.
or how yana wud sae.. ur-buntut.
below is a screenshot.

n a feelin of guilt, overcame me.
thinking.. the times i stayback in poly.
"if i wud studied, ubuntu wud be fun, n skwel wud b easier."
the times wen i wud read pages n chapters abt codes.
java. c++. asp.net php.
windows ubuntu kernel cisco
hmms.

poly is jz an institution.
met many peeps.
but none stayed as a friend.
i'm sad.
i envy my gf.
given the opportunity to study something dat she has passion n interest in.
sumthing dat she took consideration alot of factors.
wasted 5yrs.
or hw mum wud sae, maybe i'll return to engineering later in life.

the 2 resorts are up.
sentosa n marina bay.
wud i go there sumday?
hmms. possibly.

passed by sentosa costa sands.
wanna rent the place, one day.
maybe i'll invite family.
hmms.

n i spent onli 12bucks on sentosa.(nt including ezlink)

n cuz, sory i dont talk to u much.
smhow, mcm laen gituk.

ubuntu

lappy crashed.
kinda didnt expect it wud crash faster than scheduled.
anyways, it crashed.
so it gav me the perfect excuse to try ubuntu.
kinda kwel stuff.
jz a bit too little details.

sum disadvantages i hav to live with.
1)no games, bcuz ubuntu doesnt recognize .exe files.
2)no msn live messenger. also .exe.
3)n sum other programs dat are .exe.
4)sensitive to virus or anythg suspicious. it cud also be advantage.
5)i cnt tap internet. ouh well.

advantages
1)straightforward, no files are hidden. so virus.. muahaha. cant escape.
2)faster loading.
3)looks kwel.

i'm opening my book on visualization.
so i can take advantage of both windows n ubuntu.
hmms. anyone wanna acommpany to sim lim?


oya. i hav a new addiction.
exercising.
i'm getting darker. ahaha.

just hope sentosa is a blast.

cuz, i'm hurt

the flu bug got the wrong guy.
i'm complaining!!
i take care of my sleep, food, n everythg dat concerns my health.
but why ouh why it has to get me.
biler duduk, nk diri. biler diri, nk duduk.
mengidam macdonalds la. goreng pisang la. curly fries la. popeyes la.

n tis damn annoying muscle strain.
no thanks to mum reminding me, a cousin once had his muscle torn once.
n it took him MONTHS to recover.
at least he gets paid. he was injured accidentally playin soccer in ns.
c'mon la, i wanna prepare fer my napha n ns.
i dont want to unfit wen i go in ns.
I WANNA BE SUMONE RELIABLE W MY MATES.
i been thru secondary life before.
n i hate the situation where everyone can do situps or pushups together.
n u're the onli one hu cudnt continue.
i almost fell frm the stairs, wen my legs juz went jam. argh!
i wanna b like my senior.
"if u r fit, n u cn gel w mates, ns will be like camp"

n i'm realli disturbed w my cousin's immatured egoistic thinking.
i aint goin to giv u a "i told u so" speech.
but realli.
wad i ask u to do, i didnt ask u to make myself sound smart.
but there r reasons y i make u promise u wudnt do.
n tings i wan u to avoid.
wich unfortunately, alreadi happen. cnt u juz trust ur own cuzzin???
sekarang semer da kecoh.
n i'm realli concern for u. for everyone dat is related.
ur actions doesnt just hurt dem, but me too.
n honestly, it is hurting our cousin relationship. thnx uh.
P/S. it isnt other ppl. its ur actions.

btw. luv-ing solat under the sun.
it just... erm.. a "words cant describe" feeling.
haha. dz was like cursing after the solat. lol.