2010

2009 is a yr of rollercoaster of events n situations.

main events in 2009?
1)I graduated.
2)Entered school.
3)I turned 21. I feel so old. haha.
4)2 yrs.
5)H1N1

i going to try something new in 2010.
i wont have any resolution. no hopes. no goals. just chill. n take everyday, day after day.
since me entering NS/CD, might as well i just relax.

looking forward to October n November 2010 next yr.

o ya, lookin foward to 9 March 2010. Ns Enlistment.

sorry

Dear Girlfriend,

As you read this, do know that our relationship would always be a priority.
Esp when ancient problems n arguments have RECENTLY hauntin n challengin us.

Honestly, if i'm the same me, before i met you, i would have asked for quits.
i dont consider myself matured, i'm nvr matured.
i juz consider myself better prepared mentally everyday.

In the beginning, you sabar wit my kerenah.
N i wish i cud juz turn back, n not do it. But i cant. N i wont.
'Cuz, it shows u're committed.

last fite was really cute. n may i add, adorable.
both of us are arguing, to make the other party happy.
it aint abt selfishly protectin own's agenda's or feelings.
its standing firm to think abt the other party, n make him/her hapy.
n it does make me smile.

i cnt explain y i wud juz starstruck when u jz shake ur hair back.


i do care abt Everything that bothers you.
Lets make this work..

welcome Guest

haha. sumhow critics found me. haha.
n to the 'Guest', i'm quite pleased w ur shouts.
but really, wad happened last time, alreadi happened, n cnt happen any other way.

but u shudnt have typed in a way.. dat described hu u r...
bcuz i onli noe away a few peeps or rather one person hu wud shout the way u do.
just a question. y wud u go to RP, in the morning on a sundae.

thanks for coming.

Today

hav been awake since subuh - 6.15.

all thanks to tis sicky feeling. urgh. urgh. damn.

hmms. dunnoe wad to talk abt.

ouh well.

so mentera semerah padi is my all-time fav.

my obsession w the song starts frm the song "mantera beradu"

by m. nasir.

cud i just meet him. n smile? pls pls pls. haha.

i'll probably will look at him, n just b diam - starstruck.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/M._Nasir

ok. nxt ting.

e gf call me weird.

i'm proud to b melayu, but my malay language sucks.

haha. sory2 cikgu. hehe.

i wan to quote sum lines frm NUS - Department of Malay Studies.

"..Malay world, referring to the Malay-Indonesian Archipelago consisting of Indonesia, Malaysia, Brunei, southern Thailand and the southern Philippines. It also includes areas with Malay minorities such as Singapore, and countries to which the Malay diaspora had spread such as Sri Lanka, Madagascar and South Africa."

Wee.. i'm nuts haha.

n the song "Have a Nice Day" by Bon Jovi.

just defeated my kid-favorite song - This is my Life.

I remembered singing together with the music video when it shows in Channel 5.

Those were the times, when Channel 5 features music videos.

HAHA. i shud ajak dz, don, n ridz in singing both songs.

n. its been a yr since i closed a dark chapter.

so... yeah..

Rest in Peace - Knowledge One

A beautiful quote,

"One has to deal with the enemy with wisdom, not provoke it, ... provocation) only creates problems".

He may be Syiah. But his contribution towards human rights, and peace would always be admired by many, even myself. May you rest in peace.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hosein-Ali_Montazeri

Craziest Scene

finally!! i found tis video..

haha.. tis is the funniest craziest wackiest scene of all the movies...

A unique situation

quote from ustaz that attracted my attention.

"A smart kid asks, if god creates the universe n humans, who creates god?"

I was listening to the 6.15 Syarahan live on Warna.

N he was like saying..

"If a kid ask you, how are you going to reply. Are you going to like be the majority and say - Masha'allah, tkmu cakap gitu dosa. Lol. - you still haven't answered the kid's question. Chances are the kid wouldnt believe in the religion"

He continues..

"The western education that we send them to study, taught them logic. 1 + 1 = 2. What they hear and believe, that is what is going to commit in. If there are some questions that you yourselves are unable to answer, how do you expect your child to believe in the same cause?"

I remembered a day during my madrasah days. We are studying about Responsibilities of Husband & Wife, Solemnisation (Nikah) & Divorce (Talaq). N one of the nosiest guy in class suddenly became quiet that day. The ustazah asked him, what's wrong. He replied, erm.. my parents are divorced. Ouch.

AMIN.

once again my research is right.

i checked w some peeps frm army, police n cd.

n guess wad...

My enlistment is with SCDF - MARCH 9.

Ouh yeah... aiming for either two posts...

GO GO GO GO AZEEZ!!!

her

how wud u react if someone close to ya, offer to restart sumting u failed.

something so huge, it wrecks relationships.

it forges relationships.

it was a heavy blow when it failed.

tings happened.

tis is something that differentiates a friend n sumone truly special.

anyone can offer praises n actions of appreciation.

or handle the daily, hourly, by-minute events that passes by.

but only sumone truly special provides the special touch.

i'm blessed to have her by my side.

wen human face past mistakes,

its usual to just get it over with, learn frm it, n dont repeat it.

but only a few would want to do it over again.

admit it its their mistake, n trying again for perfection.

she's giving me the courage to try again.

she's giving me the strength. amin.

it wouldnt help that i'm going to ns nxt yr.

i'm limited by time.

but never by commitment.

it has always been my dream to help them.

to be there, when they truly need it.

i'm just stubbornly believing i can make the world a better place.

wen the time comes, you'll see me walking with her.

hidden desires

the feeling i have now really sucks.

again n again i have to disappoint my friends n cousins.

it isnt that i dont want. or i'm too busy.

i'm just occupied with some urgent commitments.

sory.

could i just request a fast-forward to get over this hell of days recently.

the conversation w someone just slapped me - literally.

i just wanted to like give a cute face n ask for more books.

why bother give some books (wich i like) to ppl who wudnt read it? urgh.

but i hav a pleasant chat w someone from the past.

she prefers me to them. thats a compliment.

mum dont want me to disclose too much info abt wad i'm doin.

she's just protecting me. love ya.

i have a weird dream. abt another group of them.

n he thanks me. for doing a good job. lol. weird.

a former jiran get kahwin today.

n the bride is soo short, small n doesnt look 24s la. haha.

frm a distance, i'm like asking my mum, "asl yg laki jalan sorg..? haha. lol."

totally no offence to those gurls hu r short. haha.

so yeah.. i'm going out later.. ciow people..

Hell Never

Randomly passing by listening to sum great malay creations..

i was attracted to the starting tempo..

wen suddenly, the lyrics came up..

i'm like OMG!!!

For those who don't understand malay, find a malay dude or gerl, she'll translate.

just hope she isnt the category that eats the chili yeah.. (its a peribahasa)

tis is actualli fer my girl.. u'll understand.. hehe.

to those i'm refering to, i'll only for ya, n never will i be with sumone described in the vid.

fake smile

again i'm supposed to put a fake smile.

lata goin to meet two peeps dat i juz cant make myself to face.

maybe its embarrassment.

maybe its just hatred.

jealously.

but i remembered times when we r younger.

before i went to gvss.

we would play hide n seek.

play soccer under the rain.

watch wwe, live football until late nite.

kena scolded frm our parents, n laugh together.

sega, playstation, xbox.. we played it together.

what has happened after years.

why cant i have the same r'ship i have like dz n don.

they too are my cousins.

we hardly meet, but we would meet eventually meet n juz hit it off.

anyway, enuf abt that all.

i appreciate n syukur w all of my friends.

esp the geng - dz, don, hilmi, ridzwan, ain.

to u guyz, i'm honored to be part of the geng.

we hardly meet, but wen we meet,

our conversations n activities are as if we meet everyday. haha.

maybe we shud name the grp? lol.

anyways, tnx for the friendship n relationship.

Career VS Job

Quoting from a poly graduate

"Good la, you got the job you want. I think i just shoot any interview lors."

Quoting from the reply

"I dont think i'm getting this like a job, i want to progress it as a career"

The former reply

"Whats the difference between a job n career?"

so i asked a few peeps, here's their reply..

"it isnt abt studying n getting ur colors, but studying something that you love and can bring forward to ur future career. A self-progressing career is much more 'fun' than a plain job. When you take on a career, you accept the job. But when you just take a job, you only accept the money"

-tuk long

"just working, its like getting Rice and a side dish. You have what you need. But if you have a career, its like getting Rice, Fried Chicken, Side Dish, and Dessert"

-mom

so any reply? reply in ur blogs..

Have A Nice Day

I was looking to put This Is My life - Bon Jovi.

The album version, isnt that nice compared to live.

And somehow, i prefer another title..

so yeah.. check out the lyrics.

Beginning

Wraith is a Scottish dialectal word for "ghost, spectre, apparition". It came to be used in Scottish Romanticist literature, and acquired the more general or figurative sense of "portent, omen". In modern fantasy literature, it usually designates dangerous and evil beings following use of the word in J.R.R. Tolkien's Ringwraiths.

Haha. I AM BAAAAACCCKKK!!!

WAIT WAIT. I WANT TO EXPLAIN MY TITLE.

WHY I CHOOSE IT.

1)if you know me, probably i change blog url like i change shirts everyday.

2)It sounded like i'm a ghost like dat, so people dont really bother to ask me whats my new blog url.

3)i was reading some books by JRR Tolkiens - you would know he is one of my FAVORITE WRITERS EVER.

4)it sounds cool. AWAKENING OF A WRAITH.

Anyway, arwrites.com is sold to someone, so dont bother linking to it.

But, i'm buying it back. haha.

the url isnt for commercial stuff. kinda back-end stuff. dats why its "blank".

i recently got a new job - which totally i love it. It is more of commission on performance.

Dont worry people, i aint selling anything, or hiring people to be my downline or whatever.

Anyway, i may include something in my blog.. later which would give you hints what i am up to recently, yeah?

Now is 7am. I need my daily dosage of News.

Lol, people spend time listening to songs 'n' games online.

The Nerd aku - reading and reading about Stuff from AFP, CNASIA, YAHOONews, & Youtube Reviews.

I just realised something thats missing in SG Islamic Studies in SG.

I'll belanja you a Swensens lunch if you know what is it.

HINT - I wanted to be it, after my olvls. But because i cant meet the OLvls Cut-off, i switched to Engineering.

And i'm shocked when i found out, the peeps who study Islam in Western Uni are more than Arab Uni.

Statistically, Western Uni are better, i cn study it in bcd. It recognizes my diploma. yey!

And, my ustaz say what i want to study aint in diploma or bcd. urgh.

Its my childhood dream sia. haha.

Why am i so into it recently? DUnnoe.

Maybe its because the medium is in English? Lol. haha.

So it gives the heavy question. . . . . . . . . . . .

(Mum told me, it would be easier for her to allow me to study overseas, if i'm married) LOL!!

lol. i dont really want to tell peeps what i'm into. haha.

anyway peeps, i'm already back in school. its a private institution.

totally not Engineering or IT. haha. I need a break from Mathematics. haha.

Stuff i'm reading now?

cool book - recommended for those jakun peeps. haha.

its a collection of newspaper articles from 1959-2009.

not really a storybook. but hey, i love it. haha.

love my datuk haha. he gift-ed it to me.

ouh ya. if you want to pujuk-ing me to do stuff.

there are two books i want! haha.

i'm crazily saving up for both of the books above. haha. i'm so a nerd. lol.

to ain, sory taus tk join the sentosa thing.

me n yana kinda pokai n it happens dat i was working that day.

but i'll make it up for not coming alright?

btw, i'm shocked when you call me a brudder - facebook. haha.

mentioning abt yana, omg!

jgn ko berani talk to her abt stuff.. muke je innocent.

tp biler nk debate. lamer siol. haha.

can talk from bugis, to pasir ris. lol.

i totally miss going to esplanade to watch theatres.

i shud try malay drama now. maybe i'll see someone. hehe.

i miss playing street soccer wit my cuz dz n don.

r.i.p. to my nenek's cousin - wich i totally dunnoe hu. but mum's going. so yeah.

name sum peeps i havent hangout w for a long time.

Ashrin

Mahathir

Dzariif

Iftitah

Desmond

Eyn

yana-bedek sak. baru smalam. lol.

yati

n some other peeps which i cnt tink abt nw.

sory guys n gals, i'm juz sibuks w school, work, n commitments w family.

i'll make it up. really.

anyway, i'm baaaaccckkkk...